After nearly a decade of formal environmental sciences and sustainability education, culminating in a Masters of Environmental Sustainability, I found myself face to face with lifelong, severe depression and having no sense of what it was all for. 

I felt alone, disconnected, grasping for anything to pull me out of the depths of my own suffering. On the eve of nearly admitting myself to a mental hospital and bracing in fear of my own mental state, I was awaiting a call from a psychiatrist to finally get a prescription for antidepressants. I couldn't fight any longer. 

That night, something sparked in me to watch the movie Fantastic Fungi. They spoke about microdosing and relief for depression and other mental-emotional challenges.

I'd had a relationship with the sacred mushroom starting when I was 14, but growing up in typical western culture, I'd never turned to them with the intention of healing. 

I felt inklings of hope filtering through the heavy cloud of depression hanging over me.

The next day, I never received a call back the psychiatrist like I was expecting. Instead, I received a random text from a dear friend that she was getting some sacred mushrooms, and asked if I would like some.

Instantly I knew it was a sign. The sacred mushroom weaved their way back into my life. This time for healing. This time for transformation. This time for remembering my purpose, and for reviving of my devotion to Mother Earth and to the sacredness of life. 

Three weeks into my first microdosing protocol, I experienced the most relief I'd ever had from my depression. 

The sacred mushroom helped me to see the root of my suffering, and to draw connections to the root cause of global ecological destruction. 

The dominant paradigm of the western world is rooted in an illusion that we are separate from nature. This belief of separateness is what drives destruction, both of the external world--the natural environment, as well as our internal worlds--on personal and collective levels. 

This vision revived within me my deeply impassioned love for Mother Earth and a devotion to reviving our connection to her to facilitate personal and ecological healing, and thus Sacred Roots Revival was born.